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Drew B.

Drew B., Staff Sergeant, Army, OIF, 2008-2009.
[Our daily routine] always changed; being Infantry, we were prepared [for anything]. My battalion was split up through Baghdad.  My company was broken down even further than that; I was fortunate in a way. I try to [focus on] the last three and a half months that I was in-country, because I worked with [Iraqi] juveniles.  It was very sad, but very rewarding; to try and get them to understand that we weren’t bad. It was more a “hearts and minds” mission. Once the heat comes, the sandstorms are the only problems we have after that because everything would stick to you. You look like a snowman with sand. You’re constantly breathing in dust and dirt and everything. They burn everything there…trash, feces, everything. I developed a nasty cough from it. You get used to it…You have more things to worry about than what you’re breathing in. We actually went and took a whole loaf of bread out of the chow hall, we saw the ducks by there...I mean how many people got to feed ducks in Iraq? This is one of the blast walls [in Iraq]. Soldiers got permission to [paint] these walls, to leave our mark… because [we were] a New Jersey unit. I’m still coping, and I’ll always [be coping] with the war. But I’m coping with [it] so much different now [than when I first came back]. What I learned from the Addiction Recovery Unit [at the VA] was that with alcohol, I would cope for that day, but I would never be able to get closure. There may never be full closure, but it seems like it’s a lot easier to deal with [when I’m] not drinking every day. It is what it is, so I‘ve got to learn to live life on life’s terms. I was incarcerated in Camden County jail. It’s one of the worst county jails in America. There’s no dignity; you’re treated like an animal. A social worker from the VA found me in the jail. She picked me up and took me to Fresh Start, the recovery house for veterans. This is where I live, at Fresh Start. The VA basically saved me. I wouldn’t change anything, because we’re safe, I’m home, and that’s the way the mission works. I wouldn’t volunteer to go back, but if my unit went, I would definitely go with them. I couldn’t live with myself if something happened [and] I thought maybe I could [have] helped. We train to fight, so we constantly train for deployment.
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Drew B., Staff Sergeant, Army, OIF, 2008-2009.


Drew grew up in Camden, NJ. He was Active Duty in the Army for 2 years (1984-86) and served one year in the Army Reserves (1986-87). He reenlisted in the Army after 9/11, and still serves as a Staff Sergeant with the U.S. Army National Guard. Drew deployed as an Infantryman to Iraq; after returning from his last deployment, he was medically retired from his job at the U.S. Postal Service. Drew returned to school at the University of Pennsylvania through the Veterans Upward Bound program, and was a finalist for a scholarship to Vassar College through the Posse Foundation. His long-term goal is to teach math to inner city students.

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